Anonymous asked: ... Spontaneity or routine?

Anything that is spontaneous is always the best!

1 year ago  /  0 notes

I live my life in a way…

I live my life in a way, that means I don’t concentrate on the bad points. I am far too enthusiastic about the things in my life, and the people in my life that I let all blow over and all good points overcome. It’s a neutral perspective and allows yourself to know what the negatives of everything is.. but also see all the positives are, and they outshine the bad!

This makes me a very critical person. I do notice all the negatives, I can comment on how to improve something, of course how correct or practical a change that might be is a question on how much I know on the subject in matter. The majority of the time I have learnt something on the matter, so do have a opinion; I love to learn and to state my opinion.

This does also make me a very lovable person. I don’t care for the negatives, everyone makes mistakes. I also realise in my head if saying something will offend or cause a problem.. every now and again of course I’ll make a mistake, sure to say after-wards I will realise this but then it’s too late, making me fret in case I hurt someone.

This all comes from thinking, because I think so much I can analyse if something will hurt someone else, I analyse what people’s intentions are and come to understand them. This means that every person who meets me doesn’t feel threatened, and can connect with me and feel like they can trust me. As some people say I ‘always have an answer’ haha, this is because of my over thinking.

Thinking, however, does come at a disadvantage; like everything does, and it is that I always think, all the time. I will sit and look around and analyse everything, and then just think of many interpretations of one thing.. this causes personal problems as it means that I over think situations were it comes to relationships. Any time I am in a relationship, I will always notice these negatives and let them blow over, but at the same time I will be trying my very hardest not to let myself get connected to someone. In a relationship of course this is a bad thing. The more connected I get (and I don’t begin to like someone until we’ve connected, so it doesn’t happen very often) the more I try and push away, until I get too scared and use the negatives that I’ve blown under the carpet, to stop the relationship, trying to remain friends after-wards.

I have a fear of getting connected to someone. I fear hurting someone.

Isn’t it just amazing how much of a person you can figure out, just by reading their life. All of this can be read about the fact I’m quiet and always there for everyone.

1 year ago  /  2 notes